All there is, is This.
“This” represents the unspeakable Nothing which transcends and includes Everything.
You are always a part of This because you are This in its infinite totality, even when you believe you are separate from This.
To better understand This, close your eyes and drop all thoughts, even the subtlest ones. What’s left is absolutely Nothing.
“But what do you mean, I hear birds and my breathing, and I feel my body and see these words that I’m reading?” you might ask.
These are all thoughts. If you drop all the thoughts, what’s left is whatever Is, which cannot be named because naming it is thinking it, which then separates Nothing into Something.
But how can it be Nothing when it feels so full of Something? It’s Nothing because it’s prior to the finite mind (aka “your” mind), which means it’s unfiltered Awareness prior to any labels, stories or identifications. When the mind no longer labels and identifies (creates stories), it no longer separates. When there’s no longer separation, there’s no longer boundaries. When there’s no longer boundaries, there’s no longer Something. Everything becomes simply Nothing (or No Thing).
And yet even the word Nothing is saying too much, for Nothing cannot be communicated, only experienced. And guess what? You’re experiencing it right now, forever and always.
Nothing means there is no time, no space, no you, no me, no past, present or future. So, in a sense, Nothing is infinite, for there is no boundary between here and there, before or after.
All there is, is This.
“Okay, that’s all fine and good. But I do have a mind. I do think thoughts. I do feel I am a human.”
Let’s just pretend for a moment that you are not the one thinking these thoughts. What if these thoughts were just arising as Something in the infinite Nothing? What if “you” were Nothing creating thoughts that created Something?
“But how could this be possible? How can Nothing create Something if it’s Nothing?”
This presumes that Nothing has limitations and is unable to create, which would mean Nothing is not infinite rather a separate object which can and cannot do certain things. But that would be mistaking Nothing for Something. Nothing is infinite, meaning Nothing includes every single possible Something. Anything less would no longer be infinite, and that would make it Something, not Nothing.
So Nothing creates Something called thoughts which create something called thinking which create something called a thinker which creates something called you. When there is a thought that there is a “you,” there by default creates another thought that there is a not you. This is the birth of Separation.
Once there is a you who thinks you think thoughts, entire universes of infinite potential open up. Notice how “your mind” has created layers upon layers upon layers of abstractions and thoughts and identifications and stories, and yet, you’ve been looking at the same screen for the past five minutes sitting in the same room having barely moved. Your mind, however, has traveled endless miles through Something.
This realization creates the experience of multiple dimensions of Something. There’s the physical dimension of the felt senses. And now the subtle dimension of the mind.
But wait, is there? Drop all the thoughts again. Is there really anything other than Nothing?
“Well, there’s these thoughts arising, so there must be something other than Nothing.”
Okay, but who is aware of these thoughts creating Something out of Nothing?
“Well I am, of course. I am the one aware of these thoughts because I am the one thinking these thoughts.”
Technically, that’s right. But not the “I” who you think you are.
If you know that you are Something (in this case, “I”) because a thought says that you are, then you cannot be only that thought, for that “I” thought arises and falls as Something back into Nothing. The thought is here. Now it’s gone. But “you” are still here, right?
“Yes, but I feel that ‘I am.’ I can feel my body.”
You can feel your body, but you can also feel the seat that you’re sitting on and the ground beneath your feet. So how do you know that you’re not also the seat and the ground?
“Because I am my body, not the seat. This seat isn’t reading this. I’m reading this!”
The only way you know that is because you believe a thought that you are you, and that you are thinking these thoughts. And because everyone else around you is appearing to also think these thoughts, you think this is all crazy.
“Yes, I do. But to answer your question, if I stand up from the seat, I no longer feel the seat. So how can you say I’m the seat?”
You feel your arm, right?
What if you had it amputated? Your arm is gone now. Would you still exist?
“Yes, but if I had my head amputated, I would die. Then I would no longer exist.”
That’s an interesting thought.
“It’s called a scientific fact, not a thought. Maybe, possibly, I could exist in Heaven or something. I’m not sure.”
Let’s drop the thoughts again. Let’s simply rest with what Is for a moment.
Let me ask you something: when you close your eyes and let the thoughts drop away, do you still exist?
What is your felt experience of This?
“I just feel here. Like everything is arising and falling, coming and going.”
Who is the one witnessing all of This?
“Me. I am.”
Who is the ‘me’? Where is the ‘me’?
“I’m just…here. I just…am.”
For the purposes of communication, can you give this experience a label? A name?
“Hmmm. Not really. It just feels like…nothing.”
Did you say…Nothing?
“Wait, you tricked me! No, it’s not nothing cause there’s lots of stuff happening. I can hear things and feel things and smell things.”
Yes, if you, as Nothing, think you are Something, you can have an infinite number of experiences, including smelling, feeling, hearing, living, dying and, of course, thinking.
But if you be with all these Somethings as Nothing, you may come to realize that the “you” who you think you are is simply that: the you who you think you are. This “you” has died billions of times before.
“Are you talking about my soul or something?”
No. I’m talking about the “you” who you think you are. One moment you think you’re awake. The next moment you think you’re tired. The next moment you think you’re hungry. The next moment you think you’re intelligent. The next moment you think you’re Tucker. The next moment you think you’re anxious.
Each thought arises as Something and falls away into Nothing. Each “you” lives and dies for precisely as long as the thought exist. When the thought dies, you die. Until a new thought is thought, and a new “you” is born.
“That sounds pretty philosophical. But there is a me that is here for all of these passing thoughts. That’s the real me.”
Yes! Exactly. There is a You prior to any thoughts of a Something called “you” arising. That You is…
“Wait, let me guess…Nothing.”
Exactly! Well, not exactly, for the word Nothing is just a label we are giving that which cannot be labeled. But I think you get the point (literally, I think you get the point).
“Okay, but how do I stop identifying with the passing thoughts that make me feel I am Something rather than Nothing?”
First off, let’s be clear: you are also Something. Nothing is infinite, meaning Nothing includes Something, which includes the thought that you are Something and not Nothing.
My suggestion is to spend as much time with Nothing as possible, as if it’s your dream lover that you desire to spend every moment with and get to know as deeply and intimately as possible. Until one day you realize that you are this Lover, and you as Something and your lover as Nothing get married and become One.
“And then what?”
Then you do what most married couples do, you have kids. You as Nothing create lots of Somethings, and you love them unconditionally as if they were you. And in this case, the very literally are You.
“How does the story end?”
How can Nothing end? It never began…but that’s another story for another “time.”